December 2, 2007 at 8:07 pm (On Being Crazy, True Confessions)

I needed this weekend to be good. I needed to relax and recoop from the week which was full of sick kids, sick me, a bit of stress at work, lots of driving and other stuff.

Let’s just say that things didn’t work out.

So, here I am at noon on Sunday. I have half a day left to salvage this weekend. Its not going to be relaxing and all that. I’ve just come to accept that. I’ve spent a good part of the weekend being straight up depressed and hard on myself. I’ve been anxious and psychosomatically sick to my stomach. What do I do?

I think its time to roll up my sleeves and just deal. Here is my solution:

Come, ye sinners, poor and needy,
Weak and wounded, sick and sore;
Jesus ready stands to save you,
Full of pity, love and power.

 

Come, ye thirsty, come, and welcome,
God’s free bounty glorify;
True belief and true repentance,
Every grace that brings you nigh.

 

Come, ye weary, heavy laden,
Lost and ruined by the fall;
If you tarry till you’re better,
You will never come at all.

Let not conscience make you linger,
Not of fitness fondly dream;
All the fitness He requireth
Is to feel your need of Him.

I will arise and go to Jesus,
He will embrace me in His arms;
In the arms of my dear Savior,
O there are ten thousand charms.

 

Every minute that I walk about in this self-induced hysteria, I am telling a lie about God. Granted, I think a lot of my problems really are caused by whacked out brain chemistry, however, there are times, as I go throughout the day, when I sense a choice before me- to continue to wallow or to roll up my sleeves and get busy being better. When THAT choice is before me, I must cling to Jesus and tell the world the truth about Him. In Him, I have nothing to fear. Even in the midst of the storm, He is there. He calms the storm and then asks us why we doubted him.

1 Comment

  1. agirlinprogress said,

    I think this is a battle many of us face. I know I do. Thanks for sharing!

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